check.

i've been down in the dumps lately. in a rut. feeling like change is on the horizon..good change. but while i wait (key word "patiently" but not really) i've been a little down in the dumps. when i get down in the dumps, i just want to be by myself. not really in the mood to entertain and put on a show for others that things are fine and dandy when they're not.
do you ever have times in your life when you think your life is the pits? and then something happens that makes you realize how good you've had it all along? today was one of those days. there's been more than one thing happen to loved ones in my life that make me step back and recognize how blessed and how lucky i am for my specific trials. and while they may be hard and challenging for me..i really am lucky.
lucky for a loving, caring and supportive family.
lucky for a job.
lucky for a reliable car.
lucky for dear, dear friends.
lucky for good health.
lucky for an education.
lucky to have the gospel in my life.
lucky to be able to attend the temple.
lucky. lucky lucky.

yeah, at times things can and will be rough. ups and downs. trials that you didn't see coming. but at the end of the day, i am reminded that i live a great life.
i sure do love all my family and friends that are dealing with physical and/or emotional pain right now. one of my favorite hymns is "how firm a foundation", and this verse always gives me the courage to continue when things seem impossible:

Fear not, I am with thee; oh, be not dismayed,
For I am thy God and will still give thee aid.
I’ll strengthen thee, help thee, and cause thee to stand,
Upheld by my righteous, omnipotent hand.

I am forever grateful for the companionship of the Holy Ghost and the support of a loving Savior and Heavenly Father.