yes, i'm afraid i am. i used to be the prompt response texter, call you back before i listen to the voicemail kind of person. and lately, i can't seem to keep on top of it. an it's not like i have soooooo many calls that i can't keep up with it. i've just gotten lazy in my social life.
bethany : raise your right hand. now slap yourself.
i am having to motivate myself to call people back and be social. what?!?!? so not like me. no. i'm not in a state of depression. i'm not waahh waaahh about anything. i think i am starting to see the value in spending time with myself. alone time = good.
i had a friend say he wanted to get a big group of people together and do something this weekend. great. what is it about big crowds that is a turn off for me right now? i don't know. this past week, i was able to spend quality time with quality people, and i loved it. i love the conversations you can have in small groups. golden.
don't get me wrong. i love big parties, and just a heads up, we will be having one when we move back in the shack and it will ROCK. YOUR. WORLD. you're all invited. i just find myself getting so distracted and not being able to give one person the quality attention they deserve. not that everyone is dying for a little attention from me, but if i invite them to my house, i like to welcome them by showing my apprecation for their company.
bottom line. i love my friends. i love the quality time. lunch dates, trips to the temple, saturday afternoon movies, late night frozen yogurt. and trips. trips to everywhere and anywhere.
ps. did i tell you i'm planning a few trips and they will be absolutely STELLAR?!?!? nothing like a good travel buddy to an awesome destination. watch out world (or southern utah...) we're coming!!
(this post is also supposed to clear my mind about not calling you back. did i not call you back?!?!? i'm sorry. it's not that i'm trying to avoid you. i am just trying to recover from this state of flakiness. please love me anyways. and if i called you back???? you're welcome.)