"how about beautiful bethany"
exactly what i was trying to avoid. i had actually thought of that, but i thought beautiful was a word that adults used to describe eachother. kids weren't beautiful, and not that i was self-loathing, but i didn't think that i was "beautiful". heaven knows i wasn't going to introduce myself to my class that way.
"ok" i whispered with a shrug of the shoulder. it was weird for me to be quiet or embarrassed. i was a pretty happy and rambunctious kid (don't believe me? you should watch home movies. then again...maybe not)
well, here i am twenty-something years later looking at another "b" word in front of my name that i never would have pictured. bold beth?? hah. it's almost humorous. but guess what, i did two bold things this week. they both might come back to haunt me, but i did them. i was brave. i went out of my comfort zone. and i'm proud of myself.
want to know what one of them was??
i signed up for the utah valley half marathon.
it's ok if you just laughed a little bit. i did...after i had a slight panic attack. i just paid money to run a race. alot of money. a new pair of shoes money. to run.
this is kind of how i feel after paying tuition or buying textbooks for a new semester. "i don't even like school, but i just paid money to sit in a classroom and read this textbook. i don't even like to read, why would i want to read this textbook???"
the last time i signed up for a race was when my work put together a ragnar team. work paid for our registration fee. and i was training for my legs...kind of. my heart wasn't in it and i was scared to death i would let my team down...until i was diagnosed with swine flu a week before the race and my doctor told me i couldn't run. too bad so sad.
i would not consider myself a runner. i wouldn't even say i like running.
but i do like the way running makes me feel. so here we go. bold beth is looking for a training schedule that will get me to *finish* my race. i'm not looking to complete it in a certain amount of time, just before time runs out.
do you have any suggestions on where to find an simple training schedule for beginners?