you've got mail

"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life - well, valuable, but small - and sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void."


you've got mail was on tv today. sometimes i like to think i'm a little bit like kathleen kelley. i feel like my life is pretty simple. it's easy to look around at others lives and wonder if i haven't been brave. i see people buying plane tickets to exotic places. training for races in warm sunny places. posting pictures of their new baby that they "just can't get enough of". buying houses. being promoted at work. taking trendy pictures on instagram and posting them with witty comments.


you know that part in the movie when after she closes the bookstore and she sits in her jammies on the floor and eats her cereal? when she's trying to figure out what she's done with her life up to that point and what she's going to do next? i'm at no such crossroads, but i still find myself having that thought process. what have i done. what's in my future. 


just like kathleen, i'm not really wanting an answer. just putting this out into the void.


so good night, dear void.