am i doing awake? i never do this.
i have a little cold. my nose started getting stuffy on new years day. my mother was kind enough to send up some 12 hour sudafed with ryan when he came back up. (bless you, mother) yesterday, i was thrilled when my nose stopped running and i could breathe through both nostrils. but then i started to get this massive headache/pressure in the noggin. i left work (after working through lunch and sitting through a meeting) meaning to head home and take a nap before fhe. it was dumping snow. i stopped by the byusa office to drop something off to my brother, loved catching up with friends, and then headed home for much needed medication and nap.
i slept for about an hour. my headache almost went completely away. i was thrilled. fhe was great. came home. i was pooped. i decided i would just go to bed. i'm sick, right? the more sleep the better. i was in my room by 9:30 and asleep by 10. i was out cold. i think ryan called, and i think i had a conversation with him. other than that, i don't remember a thing.
until i woke up at 2:30. wide awake. i laid in bed for an hour trying to doze off again. i started thinking about my phone and how it's been ridiculous lately. (remember how it deletes my call log and text messages without me asking it to? so basically, if i miss your call and you don't leave a message, there is no way for me to know you called. and heaven knows how many text messages are out there for me in cyber space. i used to be more popular 2 weeks ago. i keep telling myself it's my phone and not a reflection on me. hmmm.)
3:30. now i'm laying in bed mad cause my phone doesn't work. the phone i paid so much for. and i'm frustrated that i will have to go to the verizon store...in the snow...during my lunch break. bummer. instead of laying in bed, i figure i'll get up and clean my room. at least then i'm being productive, and maybe...just maybe...i'll wear myself out and want to fall back asleep.
now it's 5 in the morning. still wide awake. my closet is arranged now by seasons and i have a new plan to hang my coats out in my hall closet, and rearrange my bedroom furniture, and 2 loads of laundry sitting here to start.
but i'm still baffled. why am i awake????
(ps...this post will probably not make sense. i usually read back through my post before posting it...weird, i know...but i don't feel like it right now, so it will just have to be a weird jumbled not making sense post, and i'm okay with that)
3 comments:
Woman ... Oh, I understand your pain. This is how most nights are for me. :( P.s. I may or may not have my own secret blog now.
I cannot even tell you how many times that has happened to me. Particularly before the summer season starts here in the office, and I suddenly wake up at 2 a.m. with stress screaming silently through my brain. So I get up and figure out how everything can work better. I re-work my finances. I organize my closet, I clean the bathroom, I study the scriptures like mad, I read books....nothing helps. I always still awake at 5:30/6 a.m. Wide. Awake. I hope you get better soon!!! I have Zicam. The kind that comes in little swabs for your nose. Works miracles. If you want. You say the word, and they're yours. :)
You are all too young to have this happen to you. I weep for your future.
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