at least that's what i might have said about new years before yesterday. the older i get, the more i realize it's a "fake" holiday in my mind. like valentines day. a day with ridiculous expectations. what party are you going to? and more importantly, who are you going with? heaven sakes. and then there's the year i chose the wrong party (or so i've been told). i'll never live it down. new years tends to be a little more low key for me these days. getting together with a few close friends to hang out. but guess what. i get together with these friends alot, so it's not like it was a jammin party, or even something that we put alot of effort into. in fact, it was just a post christmas visit where we played with their christmas presents and enjoyed better food that usual. i'm not complaining, just stating the facts. last night was perfect. i chose the right party. :)
did you know the temple is open on new years eve? it's true, and a few girlfriends and i caught the last session of 2010 in the salt lake city temple. it gave me a totally different perspective on entering the new year. alot of the feelings and realizations i came to are kind of personal, but made me re-think my list of goals for 2011. i usually make a list of goals and peek at it throughout the year. this years list will be different. i feel like it needs to have more depth. ok, maybe this isn't going to make sense unless i sit down and spill my guts about last years list and this years list and how they are different, and i'm not going to do that. so, i guess i should just stop talking about it.
new years day always feels like the day after my birthday. i have it in my head that i'm going to feel different being a year older, or that people will treat me differently or that life will drastically change now that i've reached a certain milestone in life. guess what. today seems alot like yesterday, except for one thing. my attitude. i have an attitude of hope towards 2011.
and i think that will make the world of difference.