sunset

isnt it interesting how phases of life can just end? something that was such a big part of your life, just one day....is over. school. efy. living situations. the list could go on. it's always such mixed emotions with the end of a phase, isn't it? you're not completely sad because you're moving onto to new and exciting things. but it's not completely happy because you have to say goodbye to the good times. memories. a whole lifestyle.

i'm not fond of phases ending, but guess what...they keep ending, and that weird-bittersweet-slightly-uncomfortable-apprehensive-to-move-onto-something-new feeling comes with it. you know, the one where you dont know whether to cry or be relieved...so you just allow yourself to both.

i had a great talk with my fake husband ryan this week and he was so good to remind me of some basics. i cried, so good thing we were only on gchat. i'm so grateful for his simple reminders and his encouragement to trust. trusting can be so hard sometimes, when really...it should be quite simple if you have all of your ducks in a row. i'm grateful for friends that remind me of the eternal perspective and keep me grounded in the truth. so, as sugar cain would say....i'm riding off into the sunset, and i'm lookin good while doin' it.

and it feels good.